Things got fucked up again

One little chance encounter, and my mind is messed up again.

It's for sure he senses nothing about my subtle affection, which is already frustrating, but I have never thought I would still stirred by his mere presence at this stage which I have told myself to let him go! Shit, how come I would become like this?

Even more frustrating, I did enjoy the interaction with him...DUGH!!!!!

Just, pull yourself together ok?!

The CK who is proud of her rationalism...has gone?! Ah...please, someone help me...